Just for Him November 3, 2006 Let the sulfur fall Let the blaze consume Let the shadow take us all So long as it won't exhume So long as it won't reveal So long as it won't tear past.... The shroud. Let the glacier flow Let the ice impale Let the living let us go So long as it won't avail So long as it won't revive So long as it won't tear past.... The pain. Let the darkness come Let the sun shatter Let the trial be done So long as it won't gather So long as it won't redeem So long as it won't tear past.... The heart. Just so long as it won't bring back your memory. Grief January 23, 2007 Grief Grief drowns Grief lingers Grief envelops Grief begins to burn Grief singes my torn wings Grief haunts and my despair sings Grief and regret, for every lie Grief and regret, for every kiss Grief and regret, for every hurt Grief and regret, for our lost bliss Joy Joy calls Joy beckons Joy remembers Joy begins to burn Joy sears my aching throat Joy flees at a single note Joy and content, so far from reach Joy and content, held by regret Joy and content, so far from me Joy and content, when I forget Joy and grief now, a fatal dance Joy and grief now, a destroyed chance Joy and grief grasp, my heart entrance Joy and grief rend, despair enhance Destruction sought Distraction found Amusement sought Euphoric bound Incoherence is paradise Remembering, a Hell of ice Releasing thought, ignore the price Drowning my soul, that will suffice Memory will torment Vaguely fearing judgement My sanity in fragments The heart grows fond in absence And your image I hold in reverence Drowning Sunshine January 22, 2007 I hope I see the sun tomorrow Struggling upward with flailing hands Because the next wave is washing over Dragging down into infernal sands Only hunger curbs my greed Only fire numbs this cold Only pain brings me hope I'll sing irony a new tune Struggling to break the surface I pray to see the next sunrise Because the star's light has become Black and bitter to my bleary eyes Only shadow lights the day Only smoke fills my lungs Only filth keeps me clean I'll sing irony a new tune I'll sing anything to drown All the rhythms of your soul Only silence is too loud I'll sing revival into me Filling my lungs with life that burns I hope I see a white sun in my sky Because the prayer I'm screaming is what remains That my faith is heard and I am held till dawn is nigh And I'll see a white sun in my sky